Happy And Sad

Heyz all....

I havent posted in a looong time....lotsa things hav happened....lets me tell ya all about it...

Okay i waz havin a bad luck streak....lost mi calculator in Burges,...had to fork over 90 bucks so i b came a peasant.lolz...cashless....hate bein in dis state...feel lyk peasant.

26 may waz da worst...

Early in da morning b4 5th period, this dumbass chick waved her engagement ring in mi face and informed me that she waz gettin married...Lyk i cared.....I didnt know who the fuck she waz!!!Let mi tell u bout the convo dat transpired.( dumass chick=DC)

DC:I know exactly how mi life is gonna b.I have it all planned out.So Wad r u gonna do in life?

Me:I dunno?

DC:(Super sarcastic and bitchy)OMG!!!!I forgoy u were still a babi.You obviously have no ambition in life green child.

Me:I gots more brains than u have cell dumbo...

DC:(super mad)Well, the onli reason 4 dat is cuz ur mama dun let u do shit.

Me:Mi mama juz dun wan me to be lyk u bitch!

DC:(still bein a freak)Excuse me, well at least i can get laid.

Me:Guys onli want you cuz ur a motherfuckin bitch...

(the arguement goes on.....)

I go to algebra onli to find out i had da rong binder.....And we had a test so i shit miself.=(

Den we hav lunch.Nuthin happened.

We hav journalism and PE....Nuthin happens...

I feel lots better and am walkin out to see Bryttnie and i trip and fall.Shit. All mi paper fly everywhere....at that point cannot care less.

so juz keave dem there...almost end of year aniwayz...

Go do driving class and mess up miserably....

Haiz.....FML

27 May not so bad...Nuthin horrid happen....

28 May waz da bestest...OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Okayz start off...kinda bad cuz Jazzmine and Mary were together....I hate Mary....Bitch.....

So as the youngest junior i went to senior assembly where i saw HECTOR who by da way is da guy i m in love wif....Hes 18 and he gonna graduate so super sad....HEs goin to UTEP......wellz i watched him get his awards....which meant i saw his face mani times....made mi day...

Den went to subway....got free meal...Hung out wif micheal,brittny,Elias and his frens.

Den went to driver's class.Took a test....Aced it bi cheating....lolz....

okay,here da best part....when i said bye to every1 cuz i waz leavin....
HECTOR GOT UP AND GAVE MI A HUG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i WAZ SO SHOCKED.....I dunno y he did dat bud it soooo made mi day......I'm so happy...never bin dis happy.....

Den went to celebrate mama's b dae.....got mi ears pierced....yes.....hoorah.....get the party started....whoopee.....

wellz dats all we hav.....

love
Me Myself And I

Lonely

These are some poems i wrote......


For a single moment

Alone and lost
Unsure what to do
Noone for me to turn to
Where has all the love gone?
I’m alone and
I’m afraid
There’s nothing that I can do
All that’s left is myself
And everyone is gone
I was left behind
Without a second thought
I was least loved of all
I will never know
What its like to be loved
Just cuz I’m me
Not because
I give you what you want
But just because
You can
All the love that others got
I never received a single drop
Hate and rage course through me
I don’t need you sympathy
I can manage on my own
I just wondered for a moment
What its like to be loved
Just cuz I was me
All those thoughts cross my brain
As all my tears leave me
As all the backs are turned from me
I will never be…
Loved for who I am…
I know that its just a dream
Never gonna be..
Reality…
I just wondered for a single moment
what it would be like
to be loved
just cuz I’m me…
Not cuz I make you smile
when I pretend
and put that face up….
Everybody thinks that I’m a happy girl
But deep down inside…
I just wanna know
why do you love her more than me?
Why do you care about everybody but me?
What makes me different?
I just wondered for a single moment,
what it’d be like
if you held me tight
I just wondered for a single moment
what it’d be like
if you kissed me goodnight
I just wondered for a single moment
what it’d be like
if you told me everything’s allright
I just wondered for a single moment
what it’d be like
if you told me everything’s not my fault
I just wondered for a single moment
what it’d be like
if you told me to go crazy
or just do what I want
just for a single night
I just wondered for a single moment
what it’d be like
if you let me kiss that guy goodnight
Maybe I’ll be happy
but that won’t do
Cuz my misery is your happiness
I know that too
We look like a happy family
But truthfully
I’d kill you if I could
I don’t know what I did wrong
I don’t know why you pick on me
I do know I hate you so
I do know I wish you were dead
I do know I would kill you
it’s not fair
that you think all the problems in the world
are solely my fault
I didn’t tell you to be an asshole
I didn’t tell you to be a fucker
I didn’t tell you to be a mommy’s boy
I did want to tell you to fuck off
I did want to tell you old man
that you don’t matter to me
I truly deeply hate you
and wish you were dead.
Maybe I’ll kill you…
I truly hope I do
Cuz then I know \
where happiness lies
and I also know
my true calling in ife
and I also know
that you were meant to be killed by me
and I would be
so happy
I may be alone
nut I know
this is the way
things are meant to be
and I will keep them so


The Façade

Everyday I put a face on
Everyday I hate myself
I wish I could be free
and I could be me
But no you never let me
you think that all I do
is complain
you never listen
you just decide
you don’t think about me
I don’t matter to you
well Iyou don’t matter to me
I hate you so much
I’ll kill myself
if this goes on
All you care about
is everyone but me
I hope you get shot in the head
and I hope I’m there to see it
The things that you say
don’t matter anymore
all you do is make me cry
all alone at night
you never listen to what I say
you never see through
my FAÇADE!!



lolz,
Me Myself and I

OMG!!!!!

HEYZ EVERYONE,

HOWZ LIFE?DUN TELL ME I DUN CARE.....ITS MI BLOG.....YOUR FEELINGS DON'T MATTER HERE.....^_^....ANIWAYZ I'M IN A CONFLICTED MOOD NOW....HAPPY AND SAD ANGRY AND NOT.....FRUSTRATED AND CALM IRRIATATED AND OTHER STUFF....

GOT MI PERMIT....YAY!!!START DRIVIN TMR....SUPER COOL...

LOST MI CALCULATOR IN BURGES....MUZ CALL TMR AND SEE IF THEY FOUND IT...SO MUCH FREAKIN WORK...

DAD BEIN A JACKASS....THINKIN EVERYTHING IS MI FAULT.....HOPE SOMETHIN HAPPENS TO HIM....

GODDAMIIT, I HAVE A RIGHT TO LIFE YA KN OW....NOT EVERY CATROSTOPHE IN THE HOUSEHOLD IS MI FAULT.....

FEEL SO HUNGRY....BUT BLOATED LIKE WHALE...SERIOUSLY GONNA OFF MISELF ONE OF THESE DAYS.....

HAIZ....HORRIBLE HORRIBLE...MAYB MI LUCK WILL CHANGE...HOPE ITS SOON.....DAMN....

WELLZ,ITS DEPRESSING.....AT LEAST ONLI HAVE LIKE 20 PLUS DAYS OF SCH.....DEN SUMMER YAY!!!

JAZZMINE IS A MEANIE.....KEEPING SECRETS ABOUT ME FROM ME!RETARDED CHICK.....

HATE ALIJAH...HOPES HE AND AMANDA BREAK UP....

LOLZ....I'M A BITCH TODAE....HOPE THIS MOOD PASSES QUICK...I HAVE BETTER THINGS IN LIFE TO DO....BEIN A BITCH IS JAZZMINE'S JOB....

DAMN.....

ANIWAYZ B4 I START SOUNDING LIKE A DEPRESSED RETARD WHO NEEDS HELP, LET MI JUZ SAY KEEP YOUR GOD DAMN OPINIONS TO YOURSELF BOUT ME....I DUN GIVE A FUCK....SO THERE...

BYE WANNABES

YAY!!!

HEYZ ALL,

MI EXAMS ARE ALL OVER....FOR NOW....GOIN 4 MI PERMIT TMR....SUPER FREAKED...TRIED DRIVING....GETTIN BETTER BUD I SUCKED DA 1ST TIME.....

JAZZMINE'S BEIN A MEANIE....SAYIN SHE NOES SUMTING BOUT ME N NOT TELLIN...I'VE DECIDED 2 B MAD AT HER.....WUN B ABLE TO KEEP IT UP....HAHAZ.....

HAD A FIGHT WIF AMANDER'S BF.....ASSHOLE....HATE HIM.......MADE UP WIF JAZZMINE DAY AFTER OUR FIGHT.....^_^....LOLZ......LURVES HER LOTS.......

WATCHED LOVELY BONES.....CANT WAIT TO SEE ECLIPSE....WANNA WATCH IT SO BAD.....JAZZMINE GONNA TAKE ME.....YIPPEE......

THINK I BOMBED MI EXAMS....FREAKIN OUT....ARGHH.....

WROTE A POEM....

SUN SHINING SO BRIGHT
MOON REFLECTING ITS BEAUTY
SEVEN ROSES DELICATE FRAGILITY
SEEM TO ME SO PRETTY
I WNAT YOU TO KNOW
HOW I FEEL FOR YOU
CUZ THEN YOU CANT SAY
YOU DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO DO
DAMN YOUR PRETTY FACE
I DONT SEE HOW YOU DO IT
I CANT BELIVE THAT I'M FRIENDS WITH YOU

IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT,I DON'T CARE...ITS MI POEM SO FREAK OFF WANNABE....
IF YOU HAVE SUMTHIN BETTER, DUN TELL ME CUZ I'M GONNA TRASH IT ANIWAY...

MISSIN YOU ALL....

LOVE,
ME MYSELF AND I

OMG!!!!

HEYZ EVERYONE.....

GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT.....I MADE A RAINBOW IN THE BACKYARD TODAE....SO COOL...LOLZ....DAMN THE WORKLOAD JUZ PILED UP WIF SO MANI PROJECTS...LOLZ....HAHAZ.....THE MPNTHS HAV PAST SO FAST...WHERE HAS THE TIME GONE? RIGHT NOW IS THE TIME MI HOMESICKNESS KICKS IN....I MISS ALL THE FOOD AND SIGHTS IN SINGAPORE...MISS FAMILY AND FRENS....MISS EAZI TRANSPORT....HAIZ.....

ERMM....

Well,its lyk a new semester n i'm doin JC 1......Its kinda hard and eazy at da same time....i noe inoe sounds crazy huh???well stop damn thinkin n juz keep on readind....U ain't readin this fa an opinion....Ya readin dia cuz ya n oe I 'm better den yall ever b so HA!...

Aniwayz went to mi first sleepove...piccies r posted on facebook n myspace.....go check em...I'm too darn lazt ta upload em....HEHE.....Besties n me lolz....waz supa fun...goin to her lil bros b dae party on sat which is tmr...lolz...juz an excuse ta hang out....so i went to Alice in Wonderland...KInda weird...Can't wait fa Avatar:the last airbender....

sooo...if you're life is better den mine...I dun wanna hear it...

Goodbyr